As mental health providers, we often advocate for balance, rest, therapy, and sometimes medication. But too often, we neglect taking the advice we give to our patients which can contribute to provider burnout. Prescriber mental health deserves just as much attention and care.
I’m sharing my story not just as a PMHNP, but as a human being who has struggled with anxiety. And for a long time, I kept that struggle hidden—especially from myself.
The Irony of Not Taking My Own Advice
Despite confidently prescribing SSRIs and other treatments to patients, I hesitated to consider medication for myself. I tried nearly every evidence-based alternative: therapy, exercise, yoga, meditation. Each helped a little, but the anxiety always lingered—especially in the moments that mattered most.
Eventually, through the encouragement of my support system, I started medication. And while it wasn’t a cure-all, it provided relief that none of the other strategies had given me alone. That decision taught me something profound: vulnerability isn’t a weakness—it’s a bridge.
How My Own Treatment Changed My Practice
Starting medication didn’t just help my anxiety—it made me a better provider.
- I understood the initial side effects patients talk about.
- I became more attuned to the emotional weight of starting medication.
- I recognized how stigma—even internal stigma—can delay care.
Medication is not a magic fix. But it is one tool in a larger toolbox. But when prescribed thoughtfully and combined with support, education, and compassion, it can be life-changing.
Embracing Vulnerability as a Provider
I’m still getting used to seeing myself as someone who needs medication—and that’s okay. I’ve learned that anxiety isn’t my identity. It’s just something I manage.
By embracing this truth, I’ve deepened my connections with patients. I’m more present, more empathetic, and more human. And that authenticity often opens space for patients to be more honest and open in return.
A Challenge to Fellow Providers
So here’s my question for you:
In what ways are you more similar to your patients than you let on? And how can you use that common ground to reduce stigma, normalize help-seeking, and provide more compassionate care?
Let’s stop pretending we’re invincible. Prescriber mental health is real, valid, and worthy of support.
👉And, if you’re reflecting on your own growth as a provider, you might like this post on 6 lessons from 6 years in practice as a psych NP.